And...we have entered the days where life is a waiting game. From all the people to all the latest pregnancy magazines to all of the daily pregnancy apps on my phone..."your baby may arrive anytime now...2 weeks before your due date- 2 weeks after your due date"... So, everyday I wake up thinking "shoot, didn't go into labor last night"...ha. I have so many feelings...I am so anxious, I am so scared, I am so excited! Adam and I both are just waiting on pins and needles....
I am reading this devotional (Jesus Calling by Sarah Young) that my mom got me for Christmas and it is so great! The other morning when I read it, it talked about trusting God to the point where we should thank and praise Him for things that haven't happened yet. I immediately thought about my latest concerns with not having a daycare yet or wondering what I will be doing next year...going back to teach, subbing, staying at home with baby girl? How will that work financially? How will that work with my emotions (I'm one of those people that needs to stay super busy or all sorts of emotions flood me and take over my body and mind)?
In the devotional, it read, " When you bring Me prayer requests, lay out your concerns before Me. Speak to Me candidly; pour out your heart. Then thank Me for the answers that I have set into motion long before you can discern results. When your requests come to mind again, continue to thank Me for the answers that are on the way."
I was overwhelmed when reading this. I guess I "know" that things will be how they are suppose to me, but I didn't think of it as God already having things in motion before I can even grasp my thoughts about them...and Him saying to THANK HIM even when we don't know what will happen...It gives me a sense of confidence and my mind-set becomes much more positive! Praise the Lord. One less thing to worry about:)
and 2 days...
We did it! Adam and I finished the Project 4:4 that we started with CCC, our old church in Omaha! It felt good. It totally helped having Adam by my side to help me with questions that I would have throughout the readings. It also helped my brilliantly creative husband with his reading fluency;)...he is reading quick and fast now...I feel like I should have done "words per minute" at the beginning of the 2012 and at the end. Ha;) Improvement my friends. Aw...it's just so adorable.
It was hard at times to stick with it. We got super far behind at certain points in the year. I remember we were twenty some days behind and had to start doubling up days all the time. We'd almost be caught up and then get back down to a month behind. Some days we read together, some we read individually (especially, when Adam moved up to Kansas a month before me)...
But I think we are going to try and keep reading this year, but back to our own Bibles instead of the daily one, I like to write notes and such in my Bible...so this will be fun to do again. I remember telling Adam a couple of years ago, that if I died I wanted him to read through my whole Bible and "be proud" of all my notes;) My grandparents read the Bible every morning. And when they finish, they just start up again. We stayed there this fall and it was refreshing to wake up and see them having their morning coffee and fruit while reading together. I only hope Adam and I can follow in their footsteps.
God was good to us this past year (even with my "I don't want to move" breakdowns). God is good. No matter how much I hate change, He is good. It's fun to think about all the different places that we took our Bible to read...beaches and countrysides, Mexico and the Bahamas, laying in bed in Omaha and laying in bed in Wichita, in the car on the way back to NE...and in the car on the way back to KS...
So, Adam and I talked about New Year's resolutions and such..it's fun to set goals...especially if you can make them. But the stress just gets to me sometimes. And then I tend to think "you can live a little Amy, have that brownie"....or "is it more important to be social or workout now?"....;) This upcoming year we are just praying that we can be the parents that God wants us to be! Raise His little girl up in His name. So, we will try our best. I'm so nervous...to have a baby...miles and miles away from family and close friends...but obviously, we are here in Kansas for a reason! So, happy January! Hopefully, we will be holding our baby girl by the end of this month!
Over the last couple of months we have been putting together her room! So fun! From Pantone Swatch booklets (so she can be like daddy dearest) ;) to polka dot rugs to a variety of picture books to colorful streamers, it is finally all coming together! We are just waiting for her precious arrival now...about one month...or so we think. Adam and I just were talking the other day about how "special occasions" (weddings, birthdays, trips, etc.) always have a specific date. It's different with having a baby. There is no for sure date when you will be cradling them in your arms for the first time. They come when they want. 2 weeks early, a few days late, who knows...it's a fun, yet challenging wait. Suspense. Curiosity. Patience. and more patience...
